Well first off- Welcome! I know there are plenty of blogs to follow and I’m flattered you chose mine!
So I guess I should start from the beginning of my journey. My obsession with health began my freshman year of high school, and not in a good way. I’ve always been somewhat of a perfectionist, and while sometimes I use it to my advantage, it became an unhealthy obsession. At this point of my life, I weighed 145 lbs (I’m 5’6). I was always in the average weight range for my height and age; however, I didn't want to be average, I wanted to be skinny. I became obsessed with looking thin and found myself having a skewed imagine of what a healthy body looks like. I tried every fad diet on the market from liquid diets, to soup diets, and then of course starvation; yet still, I was not losing weight. I was emotionally and physically exhausted and most importantly, undereducated. I was embarrassed because I felt that my body didn't prove to people how much I was killing myself at the gym and restraining from food. I thought fad diets and starvation was the secret to the fit, toned body I so badly desired. Boy, was I wrong- I actually could not have been more wrong. My junior year of high school I decided to take on a challenge and give up sweets for Lent. Within 3 weeks, I asked my Mom to take me to the doctor because I thought I had mono with all of the weight I was losing. I mean, honestly, the weight was FALLING off. I began researching general health and fitness tips (contrary to the anorexia websites I used to visit) to gain knowledge on how to continue this healthy path. I was immersing myself in fitness blogs and healthy Pinterest recipes. As I was researching, I came to the realization that this is my passion; I was obsessed, in a better way. I became inspired to workout in a way that made me feel good. My diet consisted of protein, vegetables, and limited fruit. I found myself happy with my body but unhappy with my energy level. I was deprived of energy due to the lack of carbohydrates and nutrients I was eating. My lightest weight during this period was 119 lbs. I mean I was THIN… too thin. Although I still do look back on those pictures and wish for that body again, I have come to the realization that I’m not going to have a 17-year-old body forever, and I need to properly nourish my body so I can be strong-bodied and also strong-minded.
I decided to put together a little collage to show my progression throughout the years. Some of you may look at the first pic and wonder why I labeled it "unhealthy." In this picture I look fit, happy and healthy; I labeled this unhealthy because of my mental state. As I mentioned before, I was an emotional roller coaster and extremely inconsistent with my eating habits. I was so lost with who I was and didn't want to reach out to anyone for help because I was ashamed of myself. I labeled the second picture because of my lack of nutrients and carbohydrates I was eating. The third picture was taken a year ago and I am proud to say I have been relatively consistent within the past year and a half.
So now present day….
As I've probably hinted, I do not weigh 119 lbs anymore, but I feel healthier than I ever have. Yes, it’s scary for me to admit that i’ve gained nearly 15 lbs back, but I am now always on the track to a healthy, not too thin, weight where I feel that I can treat myself but also be happy. Although I am at a very healthy weight, I always see room for improvement. I am never unhappy eating healthy or exercising and that is why I make it part of my lifestyle. Do what makes you happy and don’t ever let anyone stop you. I always make sure I take a moment each day and not compare myself to others and focus on myself. It's not about perfection, it's about doing your best and creating your own definition of perfect. It’s one of the hardest lessons to learn in life and I’m lucky to have learned it and embraced it early on.
I am a proud alumni of the University of Dayton and will be attending Lenoir-Rhyne University in Charlotte, NC to complete my dietetic internship. This feeds my passion and allows me to one day be able to help girls who are in the position I was in my freshman year of high school.
I come from a family of five: 2 older brothers (Brian & Daniel), and a loving Mom and Dad. They allow me to exercise my passion by allowing me to cook them healthy foods that they may or may not be fond of (Sorry again Dad for not warning you the pizza was made out of cauliflower). I have an incredible group of friends from home and school who I was oh so lucky to have found and are my constant support system.
I made this account to give people some guidance to living a healthier lifestyle and to give a glimpse into the life of someone who has been through it all, but is finally happier and more confident than ever. I am in no way cut out for this "blog life", but I'm going to try my best to make this a place you come when you need a little push in the right direction. I am going to do research for you guys and pull what I think are the right tools you need in starting this journey. I am not here to preach to you guys, to tell you how to live your life; I am here to help guide you and allow you to be the best version of yourself you can be. I named my blog “Fit Not Skinny” because as I now travel down the road of becoming ‘fit’ and not ‘skinny’, I feel that I am more in control of my life than I have been before. I have finally found who I want to be, and there is not more rewarding feeling than that itself. I don't agree with the concept of a 'diet' so I'm aiming more towards teaching people how to turn this into a lifestyle. The hardest part about living a healthy lifestyle is getting started.. trust me, I've been there. But believe in yourself, tell yourself you can do it, then simply get out there and do it.
I'll end with my favorite quote:
"Don't compare your chapter 1 to someone else's chapter 20"